I'm searching for things that I just cannot see
Why don't you don't you don't you come and be with me
I pretend to be cool with me, want to believe
That I can do it on my own without my heart on my sleeve
I'm running, I'm running, catch up with me life
Where is the love that I'm looking to find
It's all in me, can't you see, I can see, why can't you see it's all in me

haha i should just turn this into a lyricsblog. :)

anyways, i remember what i wanted to post earlier already:
today on the bus home, i saw 3 rgs girls who i've seen around before (yah i'm one of those who remember faces better than names). they boarded the bus at different times, and they got me thinking about different things.
like the first girl to get on the bus got me thinking about whether that was how i used to look as a rgirl? seemingly over-confident, a "i-can-handle-everything-myself-but-u-look-like-u-cant" kinda look. cos that's the way she looked and she had her nose stuck so high up in the air, i thot it was a waste of energy to roll my eyes at her since she wont be able to see it anyway. thankfully she flounced past me and sat somewhere behind me, otherwise i might have stared at her until her right shoulder tingled (like how mine would when the same thing happens to me, or when i imagine that that's what's happening anyway).
the other 2 girls that got on were clearly friends, and they reminded me of how i used to feel so much ease in school, and dint give a hoot about rules and stuff, just concentrating on having fun with my friends. they got me thinking about chers, and trees, and abby and elisa (even tho i still see her on a daily basis).. about the niners. funny how it dint occur to me to think about the wONEders too.. when i was still in rg, i dint have tchrs who label u and make u feel like u had better stick to that label and hang onto it with ur dear life. i had tchrs who encouraged, who never gave up, who genuinely cared about each and every one of us even tho there were like 50% more students in a class in rg. i had friends who dint give a hoot about watching their manners and appearance and would throw everything aside to joke around with u. now i see girls who watch the way they speak, the way they accessorise and try to attract the guys' attention left right center. some of them try to be so discreet it's BLATANT. haha. and everytime i see girls like that i wish i were back in rg where the only times we paid attention to guys were when we were gossiping about the select few "cute" ones.
sigh.

as u can probably tell, i had too many thots in my head this afternoon on the way home. it was such a relief to snuggle into bed for a nap.. i woke up forgetting where i was.
go to, then; your considerate stone.
10:30 PM
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